This Solider Is Tired

I hate this, I'm going crazy, I'm finally breaking down I'm suppose to be this solider who never blows her compolser. but its hard taking it all in and not saying anything back I'm tired of not speaking up....I'm tired of not fighting back. the criticism, the ridicule I'm tired of all that.....I just don't think I can deal no more. I'm tired of being treated like a kid, I'm tired of being treated like the one that will never amount to anything, this solider isn't going to put up with it. its too much and I'm sick of it. I'm falling all apart and there's no one there to put the pieces back together, im tired of getting hurt but im also tired of hiding the pain. I' tired of staring into the faces of those who want to see me fail, this solider is going to stand up and speak her mind....this solider is tired of pretending to be happy when she just wants to scream, yell, shout it all out shes tired of not being heard, no one listen's, well like beyonce said "you should have listened". cause know im sorry to say but this solider is tired and no longer will she not be heard, no longer will she be criticse and just let it go.....