This Pain

HOW DO I BEGIN TO EXPLAIN THIS PAIN? THIS PAIN THAT I AM FEELING INSIDE THE PAIN THAT HAS LEFT A HOLE IN MY HEART THE PAIN THAT WONT GO AWAY HOW DO I FILL THIS VOID THAT HAS BEEN CREATED FOR MY SUFFERING WILL IT GO? WILL IT DIE? WILL IT GIVE ME BACK THE HAPPINESS I ONCE HAD THIS PAIN HAS BECOME SO ATTACHED TO ME THAT I AM UNABLE TO SEE WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS FOR ME IT HAS CREATED THIS CLOUD OVER MY EYES THAT I AM UNABLE TO DO ANYTHING BUT CRY,WEEP FOR RESCUE BUT WHO WILL RESCUE ME? IT HAS CREATED A RIVER OF SORROW IN WHICH I SEE MYSELF SINKING IN DEEPER AND DEEPER. THIS PAIN I CANNOT EXPLAIN WILL IT EVER GO AWAY? WILL IT EVER BRING BACK THE BEAUTY THAT I ONCE VIEWED IN MY EVERYDAY LIFE OR WILL IT KEEP DROWNING ME WILL IT KEEP ME IN THE DARK, PREVENT ME FROM BLOSSOMING I DO NOT KNOW..... WHETHER "PAIN" WILL EVER LEAVE ME IN PEACE OR WILL IT KEEP ME IN SORROW TO DIE SLOWLY EACH DAY THIS PAIN HAS TAKEN OVER MY BODY THIS PAIN!