this isn't me

What am I doing? This 
Isn't me. I'm watching myself
Commit the unthinkable in 
The name of duty and
I hate it.

Everyone is heralding me 
A hero
When I only feel like the villain
Who actually wins. This isn't
Me.

When they said 'protect and serve'
I never knew that came with
Hands stained red. I fail to see 
The honor in taking the lives of others.
This isn't me.

How can I live with myself? I
Toss and turn as the ghosts
Of my misdeeds choke the life
I have left. This isn't me.
It can't be.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2024

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May 19, 2024 at 8:10 PM
Serving and protecting comes with positive and negative. You have no choice when it comes to your life or theirs.
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