This Is My Transformation T

I hunger inside To grow and grow forever do I want to stay? I hunger inside to grow and explore all that is new yet it means to toss away the old my old life and old self and embrace the new It’s hard to let go to finally let go of everything to give up your old world all of it’s treasures and turmoil that you’ve grown comfortable within to just let go of yourself and walk across a bridge that you don’t know where it leads just that it leads to God to another version of yourself a better version of yourself that you don’t know if you will end up enjoy being a version you are not sure you will love better than this one Change: a metamorphosis turning destruction into order again It’s scary and frustrating and humbling to see all of your flaws and mistakes and areas to improve all laid out before yourself all of the areas you can never travel down again that needs to be pruned away and cut off that you had good memories and enjoyment from yet they are inherently flawed and destructive leading no where good There is this temptation to not go on to stay where you are and enjoy the plateau that you know will be destroyed away by a meteor in just a little while but you want to live in your illusion that things are good as they are To not accept the reality verses dream of the situation that it doesn’t operate how you wish it to be and even though It makes sense that it can be, it won’’t conform to your ideals I need to give all that I am to God and just trust the process To do the best that I can This is my transformation