This Is Involuntary

Sometimes it comes back and hits you Harder than the hit the fan. You were just being you and doing Whatever it is that you do and then All of a sudden there's a polar bear on your chest Cold and unmoving Taking your breath because of its beauty and your undeniable dread It took how long to forget though not forgive? But now you're back again to hold me captive yet another time Do you ever tire of locking yourself inside of my body Ruling from my mind while telling your minions to dance on my heart strings Maybe it didn't occur to you that I'm happier When you don't take control I don't want you here You hurt And yet I don't call someone to shoot the polar bear dead instead Instead I admire every feature of its face while sobbing uncontrollably And remember when the terrifying polar bear was once a playful loving cub Please go away because I want you to come back I try to push it all away through I fail I'm tired of this month after month I'm through I'm through Get the hell out of my mind remove yourself from atop my chest I miss you