This Can'T Be Life

My Parents were too busy getting drunk to care for me as a child Bullied at school, mocked for not being sane Bipolar mixed with depression and anxiety I couldn't stop the pain But I will find a way to end this story with a smile All I've ever had is a fully loaded pen with a chamber of rhymes Inspired by Nas, Rakim, Eminem, Ice Cube, Big Pun and the gods of Hip-Hop At the age of 10 I was watching Boyz n the hood and dangerous minds I was just a kid lost Who at times showcased his dumb ways But most the time I was trying to expand my knowledge from a young age Inspired by Mike Tyson, Rappers, Malcolm X and Martin Luther My past was tormenting me, but I was trying to start the future I never had a thing Demons tried to grab my wings Cut them off so I couldn't fly Killed off all my emotions so I wouldn't die I became numb to it all But I found the strength to stand up to it and not run from it all Forgive me but i'm not impressed by your closet of nice shoes I'm impressed by the guy who lost a leg but continues to try and move I don't respect your diamond jewelry, I respect the guy with a broken neck trying to keep his head up I respect the homeless person trying to find work even though they don't know how a bed looks I admire the person Going to church trying to get clean wings I despise the guy who Makes a little donation, but hides the fact the rest of his money went in a strippers G-string Sorry but it just doesn't seem right Yes I go to strip clubs, but I don't then go to church preaching about a clean life I found beauty in my nightmares and turned it into my dream life Me, Myself and I, the ultimate team's arrived I thought I needed more, turns out I was wrong with that mindset Thankful I started to realize my own worth while I have time left Over 3 thousand poems, but it feels like I Haven't rhymed yet My pen got me out of mazes I thought I'd always be lost in "He made mistakes, but he tried to correct them, no matter how much it cost him" That line is how I'd like to be remembered when my time comes I exercise my thoughts on paper as my mind runs Been ridiculed, bullied, and mocked but I found a way to survive Better times are ahead, if you continue your journey and stop saying this can't be life