They've called me, it's time

I woke up this morning, the clouds all grey No birds were singing, no music played "Up in flames" the alarm bell rings Another day of surviving begins Up bright and early, heart scan today What happens next is all up to fate Coffee drank, I'm ready let's go This journey scares me deep in my soul Scars from the past in body and mind The strength within me I need to find My pillow wet from last nights tears My dreams plagued with all my fears I'm in the waiting room, being calm as a front I know this is something I have to confront I can't get past anger for the lies that were told She doesn't see it was my dreams she sold 5 minutes to go, I just want to run In 30 minutes I'll know what is to come Nobody here sees my fear 3 minutes to go, it's getting near In 1 hour I'll be back at home A lot less things will be unknown "I still burn for you" my alarm says it's time Who knows what their going to find A lie was told, my future was sold Deep breath it's time, my name just called In I go to the deep unknown It's my life you stole, but it's not yours to own The journey begins..the future unknown. They've just called my name, it is time My life is NO longer hers to define