These Painful Thoughts

It’s like nobody understands my pain, These thoughts that linger inside makes me feel ashamed. I push so hard to gain glory, trying to reach my blessings. But life's a pain that is driving me crazy, Having me sit in one spot while I think of insanity. But maybe that was Heaven’s intention, To lower my life’s expectations and keep me sane. It’s like no one cares about my pain, The love of my life being pushed away, It’s like my family doesn’t consider my feelings. It’s like no one gives a crap about my writing, How did my life become such a mess? These thoughts have caused me shame, Of myself, now I feel defeated. I swear these twisted dark thoughts are driving me crazy, All I see in my life is darkness and insanity, Just praying that everything will be restored so I'll stay sane.