Therapist
It is so hard to go way back when,
I can remember how it felt being trapped under him.
not being able to breath
as if my chest would cave in.
Now you are asking me to go back again.
Never realizing how going back would affect my present.
I just want to curl up and give in.
I know you have to go back in order to go forward,
but the feelings I am having are far to great.
There have been many things that have held me back,
everything from ADHD to my terrifying past.
I am trying my best to stand on my own two feet,
But in the mean time they are messing with my mind.
I have been on several different meds
and now find it hard to rest my head at night
Some of my decisions lately are not me,
So please excuse the inappropriateness
And now I'm afraid of the consequences that await me.
I know I will feel better after I write this,
So this is how my last few days have been.
I'm holding tight to my pen right now because it is what feels safest.
Copyright © Cory Long | Year Posted 2011
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