The Unsatisfactory Retrospective

found her/himself shouting at the world, but alas, the world did not shout back, found him/herself staring out at the sea, but alas, the waves did not come crashing back, found her/himself massaging the balding skull, but alas, the hair follicles did not grow back, found him/herself whispering sweet nothings to said lover, but alas, s/he did not whisper back, found her/himself asking said “god” for forgiveness/guidance/ love/hope/etc., but alas, said “god” said nothing/did nothing back, found him/herself trying to work out a life plan, setting up all the prospective steps to make something of her/himself, but alas, life did not act accordingly, found him/herself pondering suicide (in order to sum up all events), but alas, the mind did not cooperate at the point of no return, found her/himself paralyzed in a hospital bed (the bullet didn’t abide the will of the trigger finger), wanting a moral to the story, but alas…