The Suicide Note

Oh, Friend Darkness, if I fall
                          I pray my tears
                          Cleanse spattered walls.
                         Let this act stay our surprise--
                         Let others wonder and surmise---

                          My actions hold no one to blame
                         But life echoes barren as a solo game.
                         Empty arms are not the life for me
                        There resonates a hollow chill in living free—

                         No one fancies dawn 
                         Keenly as I---
                         Devours azure fresh whipped from the sky--
                         Inhales auto fumes with glory like spring garden scents
                         Explores both skyscrapers and Bedouin tents—

                          Missing is the wealth of sweet delight--
                          Beloved warmth that guards my dreams at night.
                          Confidence that he matches never ending longing for my kiss--
                          Our half-smile code that promises future lazy hours of bliss.

                         Alone --all Color skitters past like white tail deer
                         Alone--all garden blooms are poisoned with my tears---
                         There is no hand to pull me through adventure’s trails
                         Or wondrous wit to regale me with absurd wild tales.

                          And so,If I decide to eat my gun before the morning light
                          Remember friend,
                              that Darkness has won the battle 
                                     but not the Final Fight.


V. Anderson-Throop
11/11/14
Copyright © | Year Posted 2013

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Mehta Avatar
December 22, 2013 at 8:41 AM
Interesting introspective expressions, Victoria
Anderson-Throop Avatar
February 6, 2014 at 12:09 AM
I always appreciate your thoughtful insight, Ram.
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