The Reasons Why

If I ever took my life
What would I say
What could I say
That might explain
The reasons why
I chose to die

Was it the loneliness I felt
Friends lost and gone
The men I couldnt get love from
Parents forever unimpressed
by grades, behaviour, 
The way I dressed.
Overwhelmed by essays, reports
Upcoming tests, presentations, all sorts
Sleepless nights worried and stressed
Crying, lamenting, anxious, depressed
Not pleased with reflections
Failed attempts at corrections
No further directions
Feeling insecure
On show, exposed and raw
Caught in the night
Throat strangled tight
Can't call for help
Or rely on myself
Feelings unshared
Running from fears
Drowning in tears
And nobody knows that I'm here...

I wonder...
If I ever took my life
Is this what I would say
And could it would it 
Find a way 
To explain
The reasons why
I chose to die
Copyright © | Year Posted 2016

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Pekrul Avatar
March 12, 2017 at 11:32 PM
You have expressed many reasons why one would take their life, but I don't think any of them are reason enough. I officiate and speak at funerals for a living, and have officiated a number of funerals for suicide victims. When I visit with the families that have been affected, all I see is devastation. I know if the suicide victim could see what I see, they never would have committed the act. Your poem is excellent because it has brought out many emotion in me. Well done!
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April 2, 2016 at 4:40 PM
I don't think any reason is a good reason. Taide... just about Everyone writes about suicide, but no one takes the moment to give good reason. Awesome poem... I give it a high 7. Linda
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