The Rabbit Hole
not just the weather is unbalanced
i, as well am out of sorts
it’s not just the weather that is making people uneasy
i tend to do that as well because more often than not,
my mind is numb and my thoughts are heavy
but it might just be the throbbing headache
that always seems to linger inside of me
why do i find myself dwelling on my every move
interrogating myself until i cry?
i guess i’m far beyond gone
and no one’s come to my terms yet
but everyone around me are rocks weighing me down
and i feel like i’m at the bottom of a dark ocean
filling my lungs up with water as i scream for someone,
anyone, to dive under and keep me up.
but why have i found myself sitting in the shower at 10:30 at night
letting the scalding water hit my face, burning me,
as i paralyze myself inside my head
and time seems to follow the steam out the window
and i can see the rabbit going down his hole
laughing about the clock that is my life,
but i’m pretty sure i caught myself laughing as well.
and i found myself with a craving for being better for everyone else,
and it’s sparked a longing to be better for myself,
a longing for making my hands stop quivering,
and a yearning to balance myself out
i find myself in the dark too often
but at least the dark isn’t a void that continues to petrify me
much like my own mind tends to do these days
Copyright © Emma Sophie | Year Posted 2016
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