The Plan

I met two people that make me happy They make smile and calmed the thoughts in my head They are two but also one They say they are crazy So why am I the one scared they’ll run The calm they gave is slipping away And fear is crawling in to replace it Not fear of them but fear of myself I’m a failure and I screw everything up But they make me happy so I don’t want to lose them But I have never been cared for for long My bull is to much and eventually they all run The anxiety in my head is over whelming It’s like a voice screaming at me all the things that could go wrong she tells me all of my faults She show me every time I’ve failed Over and over she doesn’t stop She is me but when we fight I never come out on top I don’t want to be over sensitive and push them away I can’t be weak Weak people annoy him Annoy Annoying The words ring through my head That word that I have been called so many times before The part of myself that makes everyone leave It’ll make them leave too eventually Eventually all of my insecurities and fears will chase them away So now do you understand why I don’t speak Do you understand why I hide my tears I don’t want them to leave I’ll keep them for as long as I can So act strong and put on the mask stick with the plan