The Plan
I met two people that make me happy
They make smile and calmed the thoughts in my head
They are two but also one
They say they are crazy
So why am I the one scared they’ll run
The calm they gave is slipping away
And fear is crawling in to replace it
Not fear of them but fear of myself
I’m a failure and I screw everything up
But they make me happy so I don’t want to lose them
But I have never been cared for for long
My bull is to much and eventually they all run
The anxiety in my head is over whelming
It’s like a voice screaming at me all the things that could go wrong
she tells me all of my faults
She show me every time I’ve failed
Over and over she doesn’t stop
She is me but when we fight I never come out on top
I don’t want to be over sensitive and push them away
I can’t be weak
Weak people annoy him
Annoy
Annoying
The words ring through my head
That word that I have been called so many times before
The part of myself that makes everyone leave
It’ll make them leave too eventually
Eventually all of my insecurities and fears will chase them away
So now do you understand why I don’t speak
Do you understand why I hide my tears
I don’t want them to leave
I’ll keep them for as long as I can
So act strong and put on the mask stick with the plan
Copyright © Ruine Wren | Year Posted 2018
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