The piper is paid

When all is said and done, And the piper is paid What a relief it will be The end of this 38 year game that was played To get out of darkness, to find the light A new future begins, happiness in sight But to get to that stage alot must be done To say I'm the victor, the battle i won Many will say don't live in the past But the damage done will forever last I didn't see it before, but I sure as hell do now It was others that put me under this cloud Every day I'm getting stronger But my mind plays tricks, a form of self torture Pick my self up, dust myself off A new me is born, but at what cost? I'm planning the show down, her verses me I'm going to record it for the world to see My words won't hurt her, embarrassment might All these wrongs i have to make right But the person she is means i have to plan But I need to be stronger before I can For what needs to be said makes it certain Our relationship done, the final curtain I love her too much to say goodbye She still has a hold on me that I cant defy Maybe I will stay silent, let her win Or maybe I need to have thicker skin Before that day I need to mend and heal Take back what is mine, all that she stealed I cannot hate her try as I might She's my mother, but it doesn't mean she's right When all is said and done and the piper is paid The battle is won and the dragon slayed What little remains will break my heart But it needs to be done, I need a fresh start