The Pain You Caused Still Effects Me Today

You were suppose to be my everything. My air, water and food. And for a while you were. But from there, things went down hill. Missed calls, not returning calls, and no text reply. As my heart weaken, i continued to ask why? What happened to us? And you couldn't even look me in my eyes and give me a straight answer. You turned your back on me. After all the things i stuck by your side and was there to hold you every night and whisper in your ear, " Everything is going to be okay." Our love was dying and i was dying right along with it. Seemed as if you got busier and busier, or so you say so. Thoughts came out of your mouth that you didn't deserve me and i would be happier without you. I couldn't believe you said that! I felt as if i was talking to a person i didn't even know. After that, all we did was argue. My tears didn't matter anymore and consoling me didn't matter anymore neither. You would let me cry and watch like it was a movie. Not one of my tears touching your heart or soul. You spit words of fire and i began to melt. But one night, you want to do anyway with yourself and begging me to come back and i come back knowing nothing will change but the intensity of the arguments. Days later we're back to the same game. Your lying, I'm crying and your yelling. I built up enough strength to draw the line and walk away. I'm not going back this time. But to this day, your cruel ways and words still burn me from time to time. And i pose a dislike you with a fiery passion but i continue to love you deep down in my soul.