The Pain

I put my faith in what I can't see Because I want to be all that I can be Yet the pain I feel is truly real And I just want to know the deal I've done all that I'm supposed to do Even tried to walk in someone else's shoe But I have suffered and I have cried At times wish I had died I ask you why does everything I touch Cause me to hurt so much How much more can I give, If all I have left is the life I live I've given forth the body and the soul Even the parts I can't control But yet that is never enough Everything out there is so tough At times I stay up late at night Wondering will I ever see the light Or is this the day that will make me stronger Or the day that will be longer Everyone is made happier because of me But yet happiness is the one thing I can't see I don't understand how could something so easy to find Be only found in my on mind Maybe I am trying too much or just too little Maybe I'm just made to play second fiddle Maybe one day I will find what I'm looking for Maybe it's right outside that door Maybe what I'm looking for is not really there Maybe for me life is just not made to be fair