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The Nothingness of Death

My mind's in a dark place; there's no light,
and happiness is but a fleeting moment in time.
I'm in pain, unbearable, physical, emotional pain,
there is no cure, no refuge, and no explanation,
only daunting, depressive darkness.

I wear a practiced smile to camouflage my inadequacy 
in wrestling with my manic demons.
Seeing others love and be loved is paramount to torture,
for I've never felt those intimate feelings
and thoughts of suicide seduce my mind.
 
I've tried; God knows how hard I've tried, but I can't 
stave off this deepening depression; I just can't!
Life lost its appeal levying such a heavy toll
on my soul, while death offers the peace of oblivion.

Tears dribble down the barrel of my gun,
pacing out eternity; it feels so surreal. 
It doesn't take courage to pull the trigger,
it takes courage not to.

In a flash, it could all be over,
no more pain, no more tears, no more me.
I grip the gun; everlasting peace awaits
in the nothingness of death, all I need do is
s   q   u   e   e   z   e... that trigger!


(Free Verse)


10/2/2018

Copyright © Emile Pinet | Year Posted 2018

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Gregory Richard Barden Date: 11/5/2018 12:45:00 AM Superb! This is very powerful, Emile, (I have a couple on the subject), and I can say, sadly, that I've been there, more than once, and that my heart stopped three times, (though that was not intentional). When the physical or emotional pain is so intense that you'll do anything to escape it. It's not a good place to be, and I pray I never go back. Sincere congratulations for your awesome win in LuLoo's contest, Emile - blessings and best wishes - keep up the great work, my friend! :-) Login to Reply Emile Pinet Date: 11/5/2018 8:26:00 AM Thanks so much Gregory, your words of praise have touched my heart my friend, Emile.

L. J. Carber Date: 10/29/2018 9:27:00 AM Congrats Emile on your win. For a fictitious poem you've caught disturbingly well the vortex of depression, but as I learned a hard and terrible way almost 50 years ago, death is not extinction but transit-- to where seems to depend on part how we live this life and on how we leave it as well. Login to Reply Emile Pinet Date: 10/29/2018 1:12:00 PM Thank you L.J. I appreciate your comments my friend, you speak words of wisdom, Emile.

Line Gauthier Date: 10/28/2018 6:01:00 PM Back with well deserved congrats on your win, Emile. Login to Reply Emile Pinet Date: 10/28/2018 6:20:00 PM Thanks my friend, you always come through for me, Emile.

Beautiful Scars Date: 10/28/2018 11:57:00 AM so deep and dark dear Emile. Wonderful poem...Thank you and congratulations on your placement. -luloo :) Login to Reply Emile Pinet Date: 10/28/2018 1:56:00 PM Thanks Lu Loo, I appreciate the placement and your support my friend, Emile.

Line Gauthier Date: 10/6/2018 9:17:00 PM Well done, Emile. Very emotive. Login to Reply Emile Pinet Date: 10/7/2018 9:42:00 AM Thank you Line, I appreciate your comments my friend, Emile.

Janice Canerdy Date: 10/2/2018 8:36:00 PM This one made me cry--even though you began with the promise that it's fiction. May God help those who REALLY feel this way!. Emile, I was deeply moved by this poem. Janice Login to Reply Emile Pinet Date: 10/3/2018 8:06:00 AM Thank you so much Janice, There are many people who feel like this each day...this poem was written to bring their pain to life, I appreciate your comments my friend, Emile.