The Misery I Became

Am I too late to fix things? Have I lost you? Have you fallen out of love? Is this what God has written for us? Am I the only one to blame? I have so many questions but I truly thought I gave everything. How will I move on if I ever let you go? I can’t live knowing you longed for someone else, or even dreamed of finding peace in her arms. Did I push you so far away? I had no idea this was happening, or maybe I was too blind with all the love you gave me. My heart feels shattered, it wants to die. It would rather die than not have you. You told me this wasn’t love, but obsession. If that’s true, why did I, at some point, wish you’d find happiness even if it wasn’t with me because I believed I was your misery? How did we come to this, my love? We were each other’s world. You were my full moon.