The Love-Hate Relationship

Instead of building your house on the sand, You should build your house on a rock I can hardly make out if you truly understand That you are making it difficult for me to express my feelings to you...all you do is mock Putting up with your eccentricities...hating the truth of what I'm feeling You're all around me and I can't refuse to not see it...you've deceived me enough and now, my heart needs healing Don't blame me for your lack of motivation...you have the ability to change that, but you treasure pleasure Because all you're doing is feeding my frustration...that is in my nature Trying hard to stay rational But, I begin to lose control Living this life with you in mind I walked alone on the road of recover Fear clouds my mind...I wish I could leave them all behind I believe that I'm strong, brave and unlike any other I'm sick of this mess of a love-hate relationship That we've developed - we need to get a grip I bit the bullet for you... Yet you live your life as if I haven't done anything for you...how ungrateful and greedy you've become...who knew... The truth caves in in my mind of lost love Bleeding out lies and leaving all regrets behind The light will wash away the darkness from up above True, darling, there's answers to all questions, but some are hard to find Haunted because of you're blinding me with your tainted hate and heartlessness Exhausted because you are way ahead of me...but I'm tracing the horizon with my fingers, hoping that you won't discourage my childlike happiness Living this life with you in mind I walked alone on the road of recovery Fear clouds my mind...I wish I could leave them all behind I believe that I'm strong, brave and unlike any other I'm sick of the love-hate relationship That we've developed - we need to get a grip I bit the bullet for you... Yet you live your life as if I haven't done anything for you...how ungrateful and greedy you've become...who knew... I claim my heart's buried love and it reassures me that hate won't take over Why are you on the edge all the time? Am I worth anything to you? I'm coming undone all because you left me in my ruins and I have a heart to forgive you because I don't hold grudges that's for sure Why did you keep me in the dark? Why won't you wake me up from this nightmare that you painted in my mind's eye out of mere revenge? How cruel of you and you have no clue what I have been through Living this life with you in mind I walked alone on the road of recover Fear clouds my mind...I wish I could leave them all behind I believe that I'm strong, brave and unlike any other I'm sick of the love-hate relationship That we've developed - we need to get a grip I bit the bullet for you... Yet you live your life as if I haven't done anything for you...how ungrateful and greedy you've become...who knew... We have a lot to learn these days In remorse flames, I burn in many ways I am driven crazy by your stubborn actions Our interactions...our affections...they have all turned to infections - seeing me suffer these pangs of rage makes you feel these satisfactions? You keep on playing your mind games (kindness is what you lack) You were calling me awful names (behind my back) And then you say that you love me I'm thinking of what to do endlessly I thought you were different from the evilness I see everywhere Now I see your true colors while you live without a care Don't forget what I've done for your sake Do regret ripping apart what was beautiful between us...now I know what it's like to have a heartache You are a rock, but soon you'll reduce to sand You are wishing upon me harm and I don't quite understand Why all you do is mock All you do is mock All you do is mock You walk away and vanish in the mist...you echo your "good riddance", leaving me to waste away Are you in Faraway Land? All I do is hold up my fist, like the warrior that has accepted his fate of dismay Don't watch over me, fantasies that are all but sugarcoated lies Don't throw me to and fro, for I'm not a toy to be manipulated with...I had enough with your hopeless cries You're not listening ... You're talking and hissing ... All you do is mock... Cease your mindless talk... The photographs of both of us without a fear Makes me think of the times I spent with you You were the sunrise and I was the blue sky Whatever happened to that? Did it disappear? You made me smile, but now I frown because that's all I could do I miss the old you... But the new you stole it away I was sick with the love flu The moments you made my day Don't mock me in my grieving process Just because you can't relate to my distress It will take a while To earn back my trust I didn't run that extra mile Don't mock me or my hopes will turn to rust My heart might bust My heart might bust I won't let love be reduced to dust Don't give in to your heart's foolish lust Why did you build your house on the sand? Don't give up yet, start over, work hard and your efforts will not be unknown I'm glad that you are starting to understand It's a must to build my house on the rock, but I'm not doing it on my own You tore down the walls You haven't answered your calls But I'm willing to work things out without a hassle and mindless talk Together, we will build and build and build until we have a castle on a rock Paradise is close at hand because we took a stand Let's be friends again...finally, you get the picture of where our dreams land Just make sure it's built on a rock instead of sand