The Life I Chose To Live

Those hands touched me again
The vile, disgusting hands
I flinch every time they come near me
But no one outside understands

They tell me I am so lucky
To have a man like him who loves me so much
If only they knew the truth
That I cower and convulse at his touch

He sickens me just by looking at him
I can't stand the man at all
He makes me do things I hate
And then makes me take the fall

He says that he is sorry
After each time he wages war on my body
But I no longer believe him
He is just a liar who abuses me constantly

One day this story will end
And the outcome won't be a happily ever after
It will be the tragic kind
With tears in place of laughter

But don't feel bad for me or this life I have
I chose this a long time ago
I thought it was what I deserved
And so I stayed until it was too late to go
Copyright © | Year Posted 2010

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Brown Avatar
March 22, 2012 at 6:18 AM
Congratulations on your well deserved featured write this week Melissa. Love,Carol
Grisetti Avatar
March 19, 2012 at 1:27 PM
Such a moving poem. It reminds of the news story about the young girl forced to marry her raper, and live with his abuse until she killed herself. There has to be some way to help other women.
Fraser Avatar
October 17, 2010 at 1:39 PM
So many live in this existance, and it abhors me greatly. Heartfelt poetry Melissa >> James
Chappell Avatar
October 17, 2010 at 10:01 AM
excellent write again duncan
Brown Avatar
October 15, 2010 at 9:57 AM
Starting my weekend early reading all the amazing poetry of all the wonderful poets here at PoetrySoup. I am so happy to find your poetry posted here this morning Melissa. Have a wonderful weekend and I hope you find tons of inspiration along the way as Fall is upon us. Love, Carol
Freedom Avatar
October 15, 2010 at 4:21 AM
It's never too late.
Coulstock Avatar
October 15, 2010 at 3:45 AM
Hi Melissa Not having been in this situation I can only empathise.I do know this really moved me I want to reach out and comfort you.Writing is a good way to release emotions and I think you write well which is a blessing in your life because you can use your gift to share your feelings with friends at Soup and others.Take care please. luv June(Sylvia)
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