The Journey

light surrounds me green field, stretching lasting forever i run free free of torment free of guilt free of judgement the wind seems to flow through me I've never felt this before im convinced it's a dream but i can't wake up i come across a grove of trees and i lie down i feel the wind i feel the sky, the birds...the peace i see a stump of a old oak tree i feel a tear come down wanting to fall, i feel for the tree i cry, i sob i don't know why the stump tells me something a whisper, a secret that's meant to keep the secret i treasure deep inside like a promise i keep running until i cant run anymore, any longer i again think of the stump i start to cry before i tell myself, control your emotions! i keep running... i think of my life before i fell asleep i see family cheerful happy without me i don't want to go back to those times i want to go forward, never look back i keep running i think back to my mother: kind eyes loving hands caring acts my father: strong hads firm beliefs forgiving tone of voice i stop and i think to myself, if i go back, my future is wasted i won't be able to lice freely, without a care in the world i think to the secret i feel like shouting it to the world but the stump... what if i broke my promise what if i couldn't control my emotions what if i got stuck in this world what if i want to... what if... i keep running i keep running i keep running i keep running my mind is racing my heart is beating m legs ar trembling i feel as though i will fall but i keep running tears stream down my cheeks and the world aroung me changes so fast that i don't see it coming the green field to to dry, dead plants, dead field i don't know where i am anymore i see the grove in the distance i run to the stump i fall upon it and cry, cry like a thousand storms compiled together together like my family i forget about my future i force myself into the past my future is wasted tomorrow is forgotten the stump stares at me forcing its wa into my memory memory past gone the grove is no longer beautiful the stump is gone everything is gone i stand there, blinded by my own fury i despise myself for not listening to my own advice i feel an emtiness almost like a numbness where i feel nothing i see nothing but i learn to fight fight to look forward fight to find my future to forget about things that should be forgotten to forget about my past the emptiness surrounding me starts to fadde more and more green the field becomes little by little the color is restored the more i fight the faster it grows, the more i can forget the greener it gets i keep fighting i refuse to stop the world come back to me i keep running this time of fear fear that whatever i do isn't good enough until i see the stump just seeing it helps me realize that im not the only one i whisper, i feel for you it answers, i love you i will not leave the stump for it is my friend but it tells me, you can always come back i will, i say for you AND I KEEP RUNNING i have found my hapiness it is here inside me, the stump, the grove, the field, everything i know that i can return whenever i need to get away from my past, my present to see my future to look forward to not break my promises to keep secrets and to not abandon those i love this world has taught me that, happiness is with me whenever i need it i just can close my eyes and see my future fight for what i need fight for what i want to FIGHT AND... to keep running