The Inside

So here I am again Living life like a panic attack Not knowing what’s next Not knowing my way back… So now I fall again Living life Like a drunken fat rat Eating all the emotions in site Because inside im empty And full of spite. I can’t control myself And the hatred I spew I pump in these drugs While I constantly wake up on rugs Jesus Christ what’s wrong with me Dear god what have I become… Oh angels please save me Before im sent back where I came from… I constantly rape the feelings of my friends I forget who I am I find myself hitting dead ends When I try to remember what I am… Im done telling you im fine Im done lying to the both of us Im done pretending im the good guy When myself is who I can’t trust…