The Idea of Death

All about last night There were traffic sounds and loud music The voices fell on my ears but it's like I could hear nothing There were people around me calling my name probably Trying to wake me up But I could feel nothing but coldness of wind on my hands There were thoughts, thousands of them Piercing my body like a sharp pointed needle But I was numb, numb to all the pain it caused And the only thing I could think of was How soothing it will be when my soul will leave my body leaving a peaceful smile on my face Knowing that I've given all the love, life and goodness I had in me The last shred of heart is now sold And all beautiful yellows are now empty black And with that thought I felt asleep, tears of joy drying on face dreaming about how freeing this will be. No thought of my aspirations, things or people I loved or the desires I had were as good as this thought, everything was ashen. And today when I woke up, I was a bit confused for it was all the same Loud people, chirping birds, barking dogs And then my heart synchronized with my mind and said - "Now is not the time".