The Hueful Darkness

Into your being, Aeolus blew an enthusiastic hunger, Driving your curious and passionate nature To swirl together in an eclectic dance, Displaying a prismatic array of imaginative hues, a zealous vortex, a colorful blur. You were alive in a way very few Ever were This was you. People said you were a mess, a faltered and broken soul, they'd say, an albatross placed around one's neck, a sinking ship, a ball and chain— a disaster not yet made. With jealous words they chose to speak but I saw the magic they were too blind to see. Your chaos was brilliant; you were beautiful to me. You calmed in my presence enough that I could see your aura painted with every color known to be. And when your eyes met mine, I could tell they saw beyond my earthly shell. And within your essence of spinning hues, I saw something else there too: a sadness, a sadness I swore to love out of you, to preserve the magic in your dance. So I gave you my loyalty, time and patience for my love already lived within your essence’s grasp, I was determined to heal the tear in your heart, to mend without scars all your shattered parts. While in my soul's embrace, your shadows seemed to wane. With time, the darkness did ascend— you felt no more pain, no heaviness within. But as the shadows left your face, your cyclonic presence softened its pace. With your heart filled and your sadness erased, I watched your vortex still and its colors fade. Happy and whole, you felt content in the family we created, in the life we lived. Feeling ashamed, I began to pull away, remorseful, burying the ache I could not explain. I was angry with my own heart for feeling confused— in the absence of your color, I had lost my muse. For the murder of inspiration, my love stands accused, missing all the initial cues that the sadness I sought to remove was more important to me than I ever knew I understand now what your sadness did— it held open the wound where your magic lived. And the pain that wound made, it gave like a gift, stitching new feeling to every color it bled. And with every new color, reality bent, giving birth to a finale of colorful sparks That ignited the beautiful whirlwind of chaos I loved with every ounce of my heart