The Grief of Goodbye

Memories of us continue to haunt me, of the way we loved and what used to be making love beneath millions of glittering stars. I don't glance at the night sky anymore. It's a bitter reminder of days gone by Days when I walked in the rain so you wouldn't see the tears I cried because of the depth of my emotional pain. I was drowning in a whirlpool you created and it made me feel like such a fool because I couldn't pull you out of the darkness that dragged you in. I had to face the truth, so I left. It was the hardest thing I'd ever done and it left my heart broken and bereft. Days move much too slowly, but nights are filled with vivid dreams of hearing your laughter and feeling your touch. I remember how much you meant to me. My heart feels like it will never be free of you. I wonder... if we were ever to meet again, what would we say? What would we feel? Nothing hurt more than the grief of goodbye You didn't say, "Stay, and I promise to try." No words came from your lips, just a gentle kiss and a whisper of love. I walked away, hoping it would rain so you wouldn't see the tears I cried. Sadness left my heart wretched and crushed the world around me lies silent and hushed. In my solitude, I'm missing our conversations Sometimes I think I'll go insane. Is that worse than living with the pain of watching you swim out to sea, lost in a whirlpool of your own creation? I'm sorry I couldn't save you from yourself, but I could only rescue myself from you. My heart is wounded, wretched and crushed My world seems empty, silent and hushed. September 2, 2020 Song I ~ Cold's ~ Quiet Now Sponsor: Rob Carmack