The Grave

It’s a constant battle with my mind Rehearsing things I have left behind Reviewing scenarios like a thesis in school Visualizing moments that were unbearably cruel. The video seems to be on repeat As I begin to slowly retreat. While others dance in the refreshing rain I feaster in old familiar pain. As the predators smile in utter glee I am left feeling vacant…. Completely empty. I know that I can never get back time It’s time that seems to be my crime Wasted it on fruitless endeavors Filled with delusion while thinking I was clever I am not where I want to be But I know there is a light set before me I am not what others once knew But at times it is hard to continue to pursue Damaged they call it, jaded they say I am diamond, on fire, being purified each day. Breaking the cycles Destroying the lies Does somebody hear my little girl cries? You heal as you grow And grow while you heal Guarding the gates from those that like to steal. People are funny, they never admit Can this be all there is? Will I ever leave this pit? I am locked in a cage of my own How do I get out? I was never shown. Missing what was instead of embracing what will be This trapped door has me in a place but I am holding the key Only love from another can break down these walls I know he can see me as I crawl. When you’re down on your knees You can finally see It’s a touch from God that can set you free! By: Sabina Nicole