The Future

The Future To whoever it indeed concerns, Congratulations on finding this letter, but unfortunately, you are too late I chose to venture on a journey to find something It may seem a rash decision to you mortals, but expect me But I’m hoping that this trip will aid me In what way, I don’t know yet, and that makes it fun You see, my future is unknown, and that is a bit frightening I never really cared a bit for my future for silly reasons The reason was that I didn’t believe I had one or deserved one Ridiculous, I know, but that is what I truly believed in before But that all changed because of my lovely friends Some of them got married and found happiness Some of them achieved their goals and found enjoyment Meanwhile, I’m trapped in this dead-end job There is a tremendous amount of stress that constantly stacks daily Though, to be fair, it’s primarily self-inflicted stress for no reason Even if that is true, I’m still stressing myself out daily I wake up feeling dread and worry constantly Some days are much worse compared to other times These days, I cry myself to sleep with thoughts of hurting myself Thankfully, these days aren’t plentiful; otherwise, I would have run out of tears One night was the absolute worst compared to everything I blocked out the memory as best I could to this day But a thought pops up in my head as I slumber Why am I allowing myself to go through this torture? It made me think about my potential future I don’t know what I wish to do with my life And that was stupid of me I know that my friends will support me whatever I do So I’m not alone as I thought I was But a small part of me wanted to do this alone Away from everyone who cared for me Thus, that is why this trip manifest Maybe I will find whatever I’m looking for Wish me luck