The Fight Within

Sometimes we try to hide our fears By trying to fake a smile We take pleasure in shutting down people From unnecessary facets of our lives. Due to the unfriendly moments we are caged in, We cannot even pretend to be there anymore Neither can we keep faking that smile like we used to. We fight and quarrel about every little thing No, we kill ourselves in loneliness fighting against the love we have for them Slowly, steadily, and surely our love for them grow to be hatred But deep down within us, we stop loving ourselves thinking that we have succeeded in killing our love for them. And then emptiness set in Bitterness that was never anticipated starts to overwhelm us. Everyday breaks and birth more regrets Leaving you wishing that you have a time machine to turn back the hands of time And that time machine is never found And that time machine keep forging forward The avoidable moment has been created And like a healed wound, the scar never leaves your heart And you keep waking up to a wet pillow every morning And every laughter around you begin to sound like mourning I should have done better No, I should have faced the little things that matter Maybe, I should have been more considerate and more flexible with my principles I shouldn't have been too scared to be disappointed I should have just listen a bit more and talk a bit less I should have sacrifice my huge ego on the altar of happiness with self I should have known that nothing last for ever but moments do.