The Feeling of Anxiety

Scared of what? I can't say I got to go, have to getaway Heart begins to thump, to race wild Feeling frightened, alike a child Breathing quickens, I want it to slow, get back in control But it is like I'm digging myself an unfathomable hole Deep inside, I begin to drown, I am sinking I going to die right here and now, I start thinking Begin to sweat and body goes weak A quiet place of calm solitude, is what I seek, The whole world, my brain, my existence, I need to escape Sometimes death seems a way out, frightening thoughts, take shape Then mysterious nature of life and death, keeps me feeling insane Unbidden Thoughts well up, disease my mind, my bane I try thinking of my family my kids, this does actually help a while But then weird thoughts spew up, like malevolent bile People ask am I alright? I hardly dare to speak Lest I mentally break down and totally freak Stop being a wimp, get over it, You have a good job and life… You should be thankful, you are not poor and living in strife… What is there to get anxiety about, they say… It is a shadow I cannot name it, There is physical demon to slay Popping pills seems the only method keeps the unknown phantoms at bay I need help, someone or something to take it way Hope I wake up one day and it is all gone away