The End of a New Beginning

I cry, sitting at the top of this hill. I try, to figure out what is wrong with this world, with me. Why is there so much pain and hurt? Why must we live in such a terrible place? I walk away from you, from the way i feel. You say you don't want to lose me, but i think i'm losing myself. I just want to scream, yell and not dwell on whats right or wrong. I want to be free, but what is freedom? Death? To float on air with no problems, with noone? That would be easy To sleep in fire, is my dream.