The Emptyness Has Always Beenthere

The wind blew through my soul at a vary young age                                                                        And  the emptiness has always been there                                                                                               As if I were a stranger on planet earth                                                                                                          Living in a  household of constant bickering and physical danger                                                         Booth parents were alcoholics and manic depressive as they called it then                                Lucky me living on a roller coaster of emotional extremes                                                                 Never a dull moment for my sister or Me                                                                                         Somehow we made it through all of Mothers suicidal Christmas's                                                      And Father's leaving us for greener pastures                                                                              Father finally died stepping in front of a car  one drunken moonless night                                                                             And mother died in an apartment fire that she set  with a dropped cigaret                                                                      As for me I was a cutter  after losing a leg in Viet Nam                                                         I I think I really wanted to die once but maybe I was screaming for help                                                      I am speaking of this now for anyone who is on the edge                                                                Come back to us we love you                                                                                                             And I swear to you the pain will pass or at least fade into the background                                                                              And you can and will smile again                                                                                                   The truth is you must become what your looking for
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Date: 8/9/2013 7:50:00 AM
I see this won in the suicide contest. I almost have to ask if it is fictional because I cannot imagine the pain of having to live without a leg! And to endure that kind of childhood. I really related to your poem's title because I too have felt this strange emptiness throughout my life but in a different way. My mom and stepdad fought constantly but lucky for us many kids, they were still good people!
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Michael Ainsley
Date: 10/15/2013 3:14:00 PM
Thank you Andrea
Date: 8/6/2013 7:10:00 PM
Your last five words are words to live a lifetime on...everyday is a chance to help someone worse off than yourself...great poem...thank you...congratulations
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Michael Ainsley
Date: 8/6/2013 8:47:00 PM
Thank you Donna
Date: 8/5/2013 8:17:00 PM
Michael, congratulations....xox...Linda
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Michael Ainsley
Date: 10/15/2013 3:15:00 PM
Thank you
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Michael Ainsley
Date: 8/5/2013 9:14:00 PM
thank you
Date: 8/3/2013 12:39:00 AM
My friend I stand and applaud you, your courage, your strength, the sacrifice you made, giving me a life of freedom, hero you are honoured, your past have made you the man you are today, bravo to you, have a blessed day, sueellen
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Michael Ainsley
Date: 8/5/2013 9:18:00 PM
thank you much Sue Ellen I'll try to be as good as you think I'am .
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