Anamika N Poet Blank verse

The Elephant In the Room

Believe no word I say;
Just watch what I do.
No matter how I try
I can't hide it from you.

Ashamed of every bite, 
I starve in your eyes.
But when you turn around 
I choke on french fries. 

I can't hide from the world
That pure ecstasy I feel when in my mouth I cram
A cream puff, a box of cereal, a gallon of ice cream, a tray of brownies...

I break! 

My heart aches.
If I had the guts
I'd eat only my scrambled brains
And drink nothing but my curdled blood.

But I'm a coward
So to numb the pain 
I devour my self-esteem,
Cover my eyes,
And avoid mirrors.

The larger I become
The less of me you see.
I blend into the room;
I become the couch.

Maybe this is what I hoped for, 
But I don't know for sure.
I'm the elephant in the room--
I would leave this hell 
But I don't fit through the door.

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Nathan D. July 10, 2012 at 8:02 PM dumbo on drugs' super enjoyed'

Black Eyed Susan July 10, 2012 at 6:49 AM this is also awesome - very deep. I love the lines "the larger I become the less of me you see" wow. I love the realness in your poetry.

Brandi Simpson July 9, 2012 at 9:15 PM Very deep poem, Priya. I felt the pain. I was so drawn into the emotion in this poem...especially from the part of "But I'm a coward..." through the remaining of the poem.