The Bullied Heart

A 60 second embrace, held too long A kiss on the forehead, felt so wrong Add more bullets to my long list of regrets You are one of a kind, I’ve thrown all my bets Not too shabby for a drunk A carnal request I wished I should not have dunked The refusal was clear My humiliation, felt worse than fear Now I stir myself with sadness Hoping this is just a mental illness Feeling pathetic must have been the new cancer Funny how chemotherapy can’t find a cure My brain needs an overhaul Looked away from the man who stole Stealing my heart is a clichéd understatement Losing my self is appropriately my new predicament So I have to ponder While Crouching in my white tee on a corner Why do I worry of things I can’t change? Don’t you think it’s the only thing that’s STRANGE? Fell for a schmuck with a crowning smile My poor choices, his firm denial Cupid must have missed his arrow Or was it destiny who’s missed a sparrow? Time blurs images of the past Past leaves traces that shadows can’t cast After this I have to close my eyes Waiting for the next wolf to worship my dice A game of catch, I’ve reached for air The wrong signs lead me to nowhere Let me say you are so good to savor But damn, breaking you now makes me better.