The Book

It was twenty years ago Yet it seem like yesterday Since you got me this book Sure I was starting to show signs of a teenager At first a dairy was a novelty But days of my life was not quite Of what I had in mind I'm not that naïve I was just out to find the better side of me I was growing into a man Taking part in life And dealing with these wheels As a teenager with a disability I was looking for a job at a local petrol station The manager there he looked at me He asked me what can you do? I replied admin anything He said nah He send me away with fifty rands I was disgruntled and went away That was twenty years ago today Later I took a chance and change the way of life This year is like I'm losing in everything Is like pushing yourself through loose sand With a wheelchair Your only focus is to get out No one like to be stuck It's a survival instinct As for me I focus on the pain The only thing that's real Beneath the stains of time The feelings disappear You are someone else And I am still right here The book I asked you I never gave it a second thought But now it look like what a lot I got So much time So much pain The book is all I ever had It's all I ever need It is always been there Every poem Every page Sometimes something so broken can never be fixed But you always build it better Second time around