The Bewildered One

i crave freedom no mandates no commandments freedom that allows me to recapture the dignity that was taken i will lessen my own exaggerated suffering i deal with disagreeable attitiudes on a regular basis i catch myself watching my words as so they don't slip out exhaustion and frustration at times i thought i was destined to die alone acting on decisions forced me into them nothing is so painful or unsurmountable than in my journey now i realize that my insecurity and ego are curiously linked they trigger my fears and my defects chocked with emotion as i watch my life unfold i am arresting my growth based on intangible i am the creator of my own reality i find solace from personal confusion i wave the white flag and finally breathe again