The Bewildered One

i crave freedom no mandates no commandments

freedom that allows me to recapture the dignity that was taken

i will lessen my own exaggerated suffering

i deal with disagreeable attitiudes on a regular basis

i catch myself watching my words as so they don't slip out

                             exhaustion and frustration

at times i thought i was destined to die alone

acting on decisions forced me into them

nothing is so painful or unsurmountable than in my journey now

i realize that my insecurity and ego are curiously linked

they trigger my fears and my defects

chocked with emotion as i watch my life unfold

i am arresting my growth based on intangible

i am the creator of my own reality

i find solace from personal confusion

i wave the white flag and finally breathe again
Copyright © | Year Posted 2009

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Dvorkis Avatar
August 13, 2009 at 1:38 PM
insecurity and ego are always linked for me. that's because the ego is constantly trying to uphold itself and its principles,and it's in constant danger of not being noticed. I hope you don't mind my slight critique but I feel this could benefit tremendously from a little spelling grammar touch ups. you can paste it into MS word and run a spell check on it, that should catch most of the errors. otherwise this gets right at the heart of the human experience, I need your secret for the white flag.
Higgins Avatar
August 10, 2009 at 10:16 AM
Always good to read your work my friend..powerful, strong write...hope your pen will always flow golden.
Brown Avatar
August 10, 2009 at 5:17 AM
What a wonderful way to start a new week reading your new poetry .Thank you for sharing it Brandy. Love, Carol
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