The Beginning of My End

THE BEGINNING OF MY END

On this cold morning as the wind 
blows through the trees,
young buds shiver in the rain,
and the time has come for me.

Another time of waiting
 among dim lights and subtle hues.
Photographs on the walls 
of churches, lakes, and barns.

Early morning prayers are offered
while business is being done.
The business of life and death.
The business of darkness and sun.

The receptionist, trapped in a troubled world,
wades through the reams.
All the while quietly 
coming apart at the seams.

Do I need a wheel chair?
Have I had any falls?
Blood work and x-rays.
When will this all be done?

Closer I am moving through
the barren halls
where smiling faces on the walls
point out the way.

Finally I am ready.
Ready for the rays.
Rays that will tell me 
if I have another day.

Radiation in my veins.
Waiting without pain.
Soon the story will be told
of a little lump that has grown.

This little lump with a life all it's own
 will soon have it's way,
and bring  me ever so slowly
to my end of days.

Soon the image is made
and the story is told.
This is my beginning.
the beginning of my end.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2014

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Bateson Avatar
April 7, 2014 at 12:16 PM
The waiting room is the loneliest and scariest place to be. Hopefully you will win this battle. Remember, there is a lot of love here and we are all rooting for you Bryan.
Allison Avatar
April 6, 2014 at 11:56 AM
Oh what a sad write - I do hope you overcome this battle - my hubby was diagnosed with cancer in Nov last year and I wrote my first poem splendid isolation based on how I felt when he was undergoing surgery. Began to post here in Feb and have never looked back. God bless you with this journey my thoughts and prayers are with you. Hugs Jan xx
Allison Avatar
April 6, 2014 at 4:36 PM
Hi Bryan Yes thankfully we got the all clear in January - still needs testing every 3 months and his recent test result was excellent. I do hope things go well for you. Hugs Jan x
Griffin Avatar
April 6, 2014 at 4:22 PM
Thank you Jan. Cancer has helped me see that we are not alone in our sufferings. Your comment has reinforced that idea for me. I hope all is going well with your husband.
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