The Battle Within

The mind, a wilderness and untamed A place of unknowns and darkened woods A battleground where ambitions are drained And life plays out in the most uncontrolled goods As a student, I fought through the brambles Through angry vines and twisted thorns Most times questioning, where is the handle? While my inner voice howls, tears me apart and mourns My mental breakdown a stormy sea Wild and uncontrolled in every way Throwing waves of emotion over me Dragging me down, come what may My head, a jumble of disconnected fragments Thoughts blown like dandelion seeds Each step I take, I catch new tangents Hopelessly lost in uncharted deeds In this fog, phantoms and shadows loom As the cloud thickens, much to my dismay And my thoughts cannot find their room In the chaos, nothing seems to sway At times, it seems like I’m losing the fight My mind, like a mirror, straining apart Breaking into pieces, left and right Breaking into a million fragile parts I’m trapped in this restless mind A mind that knows no reprieve My thoughts, a tangled web, abide Depriving me of the will to believe Yet in my breakdown, a light does flicker A small glimmer of hope and possibility A spark that keeps me pushing quicker A sign that ignites the flame of humility I must stay strong and never give up For if it weren’t for the struggles, would I ever grow? I’ll keep taking the punches, no vapid flap And I’ll rise stronger like a phoenix from the blow I’ll stick to the path that I have chosen And strive toward the goal, no matter how hard And if ever the fire is extinguished I’ll fan the flames and get it restarted I’ll use idioms to crawl from this cave And steer ahead with eyes on the prize I’ll take in the storm and then I’ll be brave To reach my dreams and unravel the ties I cannot forget that there is indeed light Even in this darkness that surrounds me A way out, a portal beyond my sight I’ll break the shackles and stand free I’ll cling tightly, despite every crack To the essence of what I’m trying to portray Every step counts, no matter how small a track I’ll learn from every hurtle and take on the fray I’ll break the silence, speak up and shout I’ll break down the walls that keep me in I won’t let my doubts ruling me out I’ll keep running, no matter how thin I won’t give up, I can overcome These stumbling blocks and crushing strain I’ll pick myself up, dust off my plum My mental breakdown cannot be in vain.