The Battle

Contemplating if it's possible 
For someone to love me
When I'm in a Relentless battle 
to love myself

Always been a wild free spirit
Full of dreams and purpose
When did self-destruction
become the target

Insecurities along with hesitation
Stole a part of who I was
Whispers incessantly reminding
Of past failures

Somewhere in my time line
I was broken
Memories too painful to recollect
were buried

An uncontrollable craving
For affection
Every time someone got too close 
I became a ghost

Many have attempted 
to heal my scars
Though only I can find
the cure

I'm A Beautiful Disaster surrounded
By internal chaos
A secret turmoil
hoping to find myself
Copyright © | Year Posted 2016

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Robinson Jr. Avatar
October 23, 2016 at 2:54 AM
I loved this poem, Sofia. Your imagery is beautiful. A Beautiful Disaster, eh. Nah, you're just beautiful. Hang in there, you already won me over, so there, you got one admirer. And the RW (Romantic Warrior) don't give love flippantly. Anywho ... I love you and is praying for you. Much love to you. RW
Ra Avatar
October 23, 2016 at 8:54 AM
Thank you Freddie. Your words are sweet and encouraging :-)
Callus Avatar
October 21, 2016 at 5:17 PM
I am certain you are a beautiful person, Sofia, and deep down you are no disaster. Do not put yourself down. Love cannot be forced...it will arrive in due time. Failures are not things to be ashamed of, instead they can become a positive part of life's learning process. Keep on writing poetry...it can be an ideal healing tonic. Warm regards // paul
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