The another

I'm confused. I love him but I don't think I truly love him like at. I think. He's sweet everything a girl deserves, something that is truly hard to find in a guy. I say to myself. But, then there's the guy across the room that I can't stop staring at. The way he holds himself is dragging me to him. He has a way with people. He knows how to get the girl. But he doesn't need a girl. I have a boyfriend but I want him. I need to feel his lips against mine. To feel his body press up against me as he whispers his emotions to me. I need his hand exploring and touching every curve and inch of the skin on my body. But how could I think of him like that if I had a boyfriend? How dare I? But I can't get him out of my mind. Daring to think of him in a way I know wouldn't be good for anyone. I know what will happen. The people that would leave because of my discussion. But should I follow my heart or my mind? The logical path is my mind with my boyfriend. But my heart tells me otherwise. If I was younger I would listen to my heart. Knowing that my heart has been wrong too many times. But maybe it's right this time? As this battle between my mind and heart is everyday. If I follow my heart I must do it soon before it gets worse. If I follow my mind I must let go of the magnet that dragged me to him but I don't know where the magnet came from or where it is now. Making it almost impossible to let go.