The Adverse World Complete

I can’t stand getting worse and worse by the fast-paced minute So, set me free from me, colliding and breaking bit by bit Show me the way in which I should go, Lord of Light Show me the day in which I need to move on with Your might Betrayed by the darkness and its depthless despair Where were you when I was a child without a single care? Father, where were you when my mother brought me up with loving affection? Dad, why did you leave me for another and got me upset with lost direction? You never watched me grow up strong and courageous You never saw me flourish with a family of talent so numerous You will never be like me, dad, and you were a sick, hateful man from the start You should thank me for living life abundantly, even with a bitter heart I can’t take this countless beating of doubt anymore All the things you’ve done to me was abandonment times an infinity I can’t shake off this tension that hits me to the core All will turn to wings of flight in no time — I must figure out a way to be free You’ll find out that I’m a hefty man of my word I will not betray you or forsake you like my father would He’ll be out of my mind for good like a free bird You’ll kindly see and acknowledge me like you should I’m on the edge of shattering to shards of worthlessness — That’s when I had hardly any hope and faith in mind, soul and heart I need His knowledge to set me free from wickedness — That’s how I’ll get through the day without tearing apart in a deathcart Vanish away the temptations of my human nature Replace it with an adverse world of an enduring cure Complete me with God’s harmonic, angelic tunes Release the sad butterflies out of their captive cocoons We’re extremely distant, Yet so close in an instant I wish we were closer together forever In this adverse world, getting better I wish we were closer together forever What is it like to live in an adverse world in an instant? What is it like to live in an adverse world that is significant? Your voice of rejoicing, love of mine, Makes me melt with mesmerizing delight Your choice of words are so damn fine It makes me beg on my knees in His light Your words of pleasure are painted upon my heartstrings It brings me happiness abound with fantastic wings The night stands tall like a mighty knight As we collide hands, so young and bright There’s a rather fine, silver lining between us We’re on the same rowdy, yet happy-go-lucky bus I hate to pretend that my past isn’t present… But it is and I must accept it as such and be repentant Living obediently and having delightful dreams of reality is our future I was an alcoholic drug addict that wanted satisfaction to last I’ve been constantly abused mentally, physically, emotionally and in all aspects of life, but it doesn’t stop me from finding His cure to endure Will I ever be free from this world of woefulness? I am as robust as a radiant river amongst the valley so vast It hurts me to say all this, but at the same time it is helpful and healing Dealing with this distress and anger inside isn’t completely appealing, But it’s getting me through the day with my head up above the surface It’s slowly but surely getting me out of my comfort zone and making me feel less worthless — completed by never-ending success I can’t wait to see and experience another tomorrow with you, Abiding by my side like an angel of gratitude would You’re the adverse world complete in my eyes of clear blue Let’s live this life to the best of our abilities like we should ~Dedicated to and inspired by AJP~