The Letter Never Received

When I was a young kid and prancing like colts Age was about inexperienced thirteen only For the first time felt an intense urge To write a letter to a cute young girl Two years younger than my age Telling her that now I wish I should get a baby Whom I could adopt first And propose my love later or vice versa Who I could nourish first and marry later Who I wash and do her hair Rub her legs, massage her body Polish her nails and buckle her shoes Drink her a glass of hot milk before I say good night Such was my desire, such was my wish I did not expose anything except my pure longing I was too honest and my intention was truly holy I never knew this could bring me scandal And break my heart after her refusal To receive my neatly written letter let alone my proposal Till date I could not get my fractured heart mended And the shock I got still I am not able to absorb Frequently I lean at a wall or pole and think Did she doubt me? Or she took my move for lust? Did I do something awkward, Or who i loved most Lost me for the misunderstanding of somebody else? I read this unaccepted letter again and again I did not find anything wrong in it yet , I am confused .