Tears On the Pillowcase

I'm having nightmares but I'm still awake Hoping that thoughts of you won't steal the day This vodka hasn't done anything to kill the pain So I'm in bed with tears on the pillowcase I should be ashamed because I don't know the name of the girl I just woke up with She's just someone I met in the club to help me get over the girl I just broke up with I felt sick in my stomach when she left, I was eating but she chose the dish I wanted to tell her I loved her, I should have spoke up quick Maybe I read you wrong because I thought we were on the same page I'd rather be honest about it all, than put it all on a blame page If this was all an act by you Then I guess you belong on the main stage Every secret you told me, will stay with me I won't speak it I wish we were still speaking, but the piece of my heart you left with you can keep it Maybe this was all my fault Because I put you on a pedestal so high that even I couldn't reach it I'll heal in time, but right now my heart feels the pain I'm having nightmares but I'm still awake Love songs and vodka to try and kill the pain One day my tears will dry and there will be no tears on the pillowcase