Tearing Apart

I stay up all night Just so you can talk to me I sacrifice my sleep Just to have the chance to be in your dreams Tick tock Time's running out on the clock Waiting for you Waiting for what I've been missing It's morning time You aren't there The words you've spoken to me Beautiful words They revisit me Beautiful words Beautiful memories I lay and wonder if I did something wrong Where has it all gone Tear drops spill into my pillow Barely breathing Make up pouring off my face All I need is your embrace The shadows of the room surround To you, I'm bound I'm ripping wide open It's more apparent now I don't want to do anything now but cry Shed a tear cause the biggest fear seems like reality I doubt you want me anymore I cry about it on the floor Even though I'm unsure A black hole is burning inside me Growing wider Sucking my life into it I'm not who I use to be Use to be so strong, use to know how to carry on But I've been weaker for a while You had made me feel strong again Now it's tearing apart Please tell me you're not playing games with my heart Reverse Back to the way things use to be Back to the pain that once killed me Back to knowing I'm alone Reverse Just like falling back down the spiral stairs Downward spiral It's all so vile Tearing apart Please tell me you're not playing games with my heart I'm torn The rose I held had a hidden thorn