Tearful Inside

tearful inside

as i crawl through phases
of my life's illusion
do i feel run over by stress
or is it just delusion?

why do i think getting ahead
serves no purpose
next week another calamity
will surely surface

depression lies deep inside as
problems mount
caused by relationships, family
or bank account

my worries run so deep, i can
never reveal my dread
pessimism surrounds each thought
in my pounding head

the trepidation i have invades
my judging ability
which causes me to act with
senseless hostility

the men in my family possess
no external emotions
so any allusion of struggle
will label me as broken

so i will suffer invariably
with forced laughter
while crying from the inside
for now and  hereafter
Copyright © | Year Posted 2015

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