Taught To Be a Bad One

Remember failures at school in the week, my special needs I was academically weak over the weekend successful at sport, my strength and my ability growing more, You would take the prize feeling from me, remind me that I achieve nothing at school, take the sense of achievement and show me, the things I failed so I notice them all Aware of my struggles and punish my good game, you never actually helped me learn though just point it out complain, next week school ADHD I'm in trouble, get that belt out trousers down slap me punish PAIN, tell me it's my fault and question why I stay the same? Never giving guidance, take my prize and violence, cook and clean and tell me your providing, the weekend come around again another sporting triumph and tell me sport doesn't matter in life, nothing, so I'm frightened, Bath Mini Rugby wasn't something to have pride in, failure on my mind then, the hypocrite takes me swimming everyday and i mean all the days because my swim coach thought I was amazing, I was as well but she would never tell or says me, selected by the county squad my god I did do well, never encouraged.. Oh no naughty at school here comes the belt and the words about the failure forcing me to soak it in and know to well, for a few years success progress and still the same at school, nothing changed the belt didn't work, one day she hit me with it and didn't even hurt, she'd toughened me up taught me nothing but my inability and what I can do is a non important thing, so those 4 sports where 4 sports with no worth no point and abandoned, and i was left with nothing left no chance to advance no plan done, believing I wouldn't achieve because after it all I never had won, wasn't I lucky to have mum with the belt not an option the psychological abuse began as i went out into the world as a young man.... part two taught to be sad