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Tatterdemalion

Today I am Broken, Today was the worst act I have ever committed in my life and the natural painful escape he made leaving this shell of a body I could only imagine your flawless perfection for all time. I am not unbreakable and feel this decision was mine and mine alone.for I heard no chatter from the hills of the black hearted one somewere caught between a boy and a man.He remains silent W/no feeling, only a shadowy figure and lost in a boyhood tragedy. never to be a reflection of me, for he has, not one. I will  own  it, I have lost all my goodness... for now inside, I am Hollow, I echo like the screams bouncing through acreage  miles of golden wheats and green pines stretching to the heavens of the universe.I am another u. You are another me.the only survival is to regain my authenticity, confidence ,openness, best self and my Happiness,desire, enjoyment, and integrity .my sense of wonder somewhere I lost some things along the way I shall be more careful. but will never walk on egg shells  no matter how great a moment feels , if it steals my puzzle pieces I will not enter. I will always shield myself from darkness, for I am in awe of the light shinning beyond the horizons, drawing myself to the warmth of its splendor. "awake" a lesson learned  always. free will, not to be taken lightly ,forever I shall be haunted by this. and never again to be taken." Check Mate." I will never be your pawn , nor a pet in your zoo caged and left to fend, I am original, like knowone else and will remain uncopied for all time. it was a blessing ,a child, a baby boy. as the infinite salty tears run like a rushing river over my face it will forever drench my soul.u, my best, and Worst "mistake".a beautiful train wreck that ends in sorrow. the black crows squallow in the dence  forest of sadness ,yet today I saw a magical  sight ,a Robin singing on the high tops of a tree and so I rebuild. I am different now in someway wandering  blindly through the thickets of a time lost, with a memory that will forever remain etched into my soul ,the tiny speck of light remaining on my broken halo will lead me through the darkest fears a piece  of myself will forever be absent until we meet again my sweet angel in heaven. never to be mended forever my broken heart will bleed and the tears will forever rush from my eyes till I drown in my own curse begging for your forgiveness ;you were beautiful and you will always be beautiful you are part of me. I carry you with me always and forever.

Copyright © | Year Posted 2018




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Date: 8/2/2018 9:47:00 PM
That was beautiful. I hope you can heal from this. I believe that same soul in heaven can be reborn again to you.
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