Taking a Bow

Leaving forever a life of manipulation and control.   Time is over living life based on other people terms.   Like a real life puppet performing on everyone's stage instead of my own.   This certainly is no song to sing or dance to.   It is on this note I will celebrate while thanking and praising God for yet another chance. I'll gladly take my bow.   The reason I really don't understand.   I can only explain that I have always been consumed. Concerned so much for the welfare and well being for everyone else.   Birthed somewhere and I can't begin to discover.   Where these planted seeds into my subconscious came from.   I have always felt that others needed more attention, support, well wishes and dependable help.   It is from that beginning and now to this ending. I'll thankfully take my bow.   No more will I accept the position of a customized make and model of everyone's perception and thoughts of who I should be.   This customization benefits any and everyone else.   All with the exception of myself.   Living always for the approval of woman and man.   A set up for a set back in my life that I still don't understand.   Second guessing, doubting, not believing, allowing to be mislead and just simply failing my own self.   All to gain the approval from those who never wanted to see me succeed.   If they had their way I would have failed to life and become lost to myself.   “Don't throw your pearls to swine thus say the Lord." It is right here I''ll gratefully take my bow. I don't regret this life lesson because I am a greater woman of God because of it all.   I Thank and Praise God because I am well today.   And today I am well on my way.