Survival

My life has been a neverending uphill battle My travels have taken me far and wide Its bends and dips drags me thru mud. Many a night i have shivered and cried A survivalist that meets every demand I stumble through life completely aware Shying away from people out to do me harm Detouring through pitfalls that are everywhere I placed a heavy shield around myself Try hard to keep my heart intact Its been broken so many times before When it happens it hard to mend it back I stand up straight with head held high Forgiving those who blatantly hurt me I put one foot in front of the other Hoping to find lasting love to set me free I stagger by dens of devilry and demise Fighting to keep on a righteous path Ive lead the life of active addiction But try to stray from the devils wrath I've managed to pick myself up time and again lve ran in fear from men under dark skies Survived the cold and rain with no covers Let no one hear my anguished cries Regsrdless of what is thrown at me I would never try to take my own life It goes against the grain of my self worth To give up or give in no matter the strife Lately my will to survive had been tested My chances of love have been far and slim Vigilantly I stand on precipe of light and dark Forcing myself to move forward without him