Surrogate

The person I was, Left me like dead weight. I lie awake. Beside someone I’ll just replace. I wanted to forget their name; I wanted to just let them take. She keeps me close enough to push away; I love and hate her exactly the same. I lie on her bathroom floor and want to leave, Want them to keep her away from me. But I can’t help but love her hands in my hair, The things she says when she knows I’m not there, The way she turns to watch me stare. They say it’s better on the other side; That the hurt will trade off in time, That things make sense if you let them die. That you can Live Without the lie. Live without And say goodbye.